It's Almost Done

With three days left until we go to Stone Mountain to pick up keys for the new house, I find myself feeling nervous and a bit anxious. The only major thing I have left to pack is my spice cabinet, everything else is little stuff that will be packed Sunday afternoon or evening. It's almost done!

I have been reading a ton lately on organization for your home and decorating tips for those on a budget. I am trying to get inspired so our new home will look and feel like a home not just some place where we store our stuff. I want things on the walls and nice furniture and places for things and maybe even....curtains on the windows! It's hard when you rent a place because you can't make structural changes to the home but I can decorate it. I've never really tried to give a place I was living any character or liven it up but I think that needs to change. I am tired of boring and mundane, I want people to walk in and say "Wow you have a beautiful home."

Now that the move is upon us I am getting anxious. I am excited to be moving into a new state and having all these new areas to explore and enjoy. I have decided that this move is going to be good for all of us because there will be changes made that we will all benefit from. I want to use this new start as a tool to help me on the road to happiness and health. I want to take time for me and learn how to love who I am and the packaging that I'm contained in. I want to rediscover who I am and stop allowing myself to be what everyone wants me to be. I'm a mother, a wife, a homemaker, a friend and a long distance relative to many. It's not often that I'm just Erin anymore. I adapt to whatever people need in life and become that pillar for them, which isn't necessarily a bad thing but one can get lost in all of that from time to time. I dressed the way society would expect me to dress as a Mom and an adult in her 30's. I colored my hair mundane colors that complemented my eyes or my skin tone but never really showed that edgy side of my personality. I am done with trying to live up to what "I think" a late 30's mom and wife should be and just be myself for a change. Well, once I find out who I am again.

There has been so much on my mind lately with everything that there are times when I forget that I need to take care of myself in all of this too. I need to decompress and unwind, I need to have down time. I need to have positive reassurance that I'm doing ok and that I am a good wife and Mom. This week especially I am feeling emotional and needy and I have had one too many self loathing moments. When I think back to when I was younger, this is definitely NOT how I thought my life would be at this age. Nothing went as "planned" for me and I've never been very good at following the rules anyways. I've been living in a shell for too long and it's time to come out of the shell and actually live. I think I'm ready but I know the journey is going to be a long one.

It starts with little changes for me. I dyed my hair right after my job assignment with the temp agency I was working for ended. I decided to go big and it is jet black with bright blue streaks. I love it. I get complimented on it all the time. Next time though, I think I want more blue in it. So I have an edgy new hair color that gives me something fun to play with. I have left the length long because I just can't bear to cut it. It's just past my shoulder blades and working on getting longer. I have the stylist trim the ends each time so they don't split and my hair stays healthy. She tells me all the time how beautiful and thick my hair is, she hates blow drying it because it always takes so long. I have a lot of hair and always have, so I'm used to it.

After the move I want to look into getting into a healthy routine. Being able to shop at a local farmers market and having fresh food choices readily available to me will help with my diet. I plan on incorporating as much activity and exercise into my daily routine as I can so my body can start to gain back some strength. I won't need a gym membership at all when I live in an area with so many outdoor options for exercise. I look forward to long walks through the neighborhood. I also want to get a new bike (I found one a WalMart that I fell in love with) and go for bike rides through Stone Mountain Park. I have options now and I have no excuse to not utilize all the new tools that have been so beautifully laid out before me.

I'm not saying that this move is going to solve all our problems or that it's a miracle and life will be perfect once we move. We are human and not perfect by any means. However I am embracing this change as a way to start a new path. A path of rediscovery and exploration in many areas of life. A way to reconnect with friends and activities that I haven't been able to enjoy in a long time. A way to make new friends and make new memories for myself and my family. These changes have been long over due and I am finally able to accept that they need to happen and I am ready to do this. This time I'm not changing for anybody or because I want to fit into a mold. I am making changes because I want to be happy, healthy and me! I want to be different and daring and if people don't like that, well then I got two words for em!

Less Than 1 Week

In less than a week we will be arriving in Stone Mountain at the new house to get the keys and do the walk through paperwork. I will then take pictures and sketch out room details so I can make a plan of how I want the furniture placed. It seems like the packing and purging has been going on forever. The only thing left to pack is small stuff or stuff that we use on a daily basis. It's almost done! As I sit here sipping on my tea I can look back on all this and know that I've done a pretty awesome job organizing stuff. I'm hoping that when we get into the new place I will be inspired to be much more organized (I am armed with my HGTV magazine and the Zite app on my phone for ideas). I want my home to be comfortable and things easy to find. I know I can do it, it's just a matter of keeping it up on a daily basis.

I've thought about all the things that I am going to miss about our current house and the things that I won't miss at all. I've come up with a short list for both.

Things I will miss:
The huge open kitchen with island and tons of counter space
Kitchen pantry (I got spoiled by this one)
Master bathroom with double vanity
Garage (I will have a storage shed for stuff in the backyard, unfortunately our car won't fit in the shed....lol)

Things I am glad to say goodbye to:
Stairs
Yard with no fence and no privacy
Neighborhood kids who destroy my yard decorations and pound on our door and run
Bad schools
Stairs (oh wait did I already mention that?)

Things I am looking forward to at the new house:
Much more space (almost 2200sq ft vs the 1500 sq ft we have now)
Fenced yard that is HUGE!
Cute kitchen with decorative accent tiles on the back splash (I'm a sucker for a kitchen with personality)
Single story (no stairs!!)
Huge master bedroom (with a bay window)
New city to explore
Close vicinity to walking and bike riding trails for exercise (who needs a gym membership)
Better school options and activities
Having plenty of room to invite friends over for gatherings (I haven't done this in years so I'm looking forward to it!)

Now if only I could wave a wand and get the rest of our stuff packed I'd be great but if that were the case it would already be done by now. Purging as I go is what is time consuming but I will be thankful that all that trash didn't come with us to clutter up our new home. I will post pictures after I take them next week so I can share my new to me home with everyone! Until then, let the packing and purging continue!

At Wits End

I have to admit that lately I have been is a pretty bad mood. I'm so frustrated with everything right now and that is cause for me to have a very defeatist attitude. I think this is going to be a much needed rant post, so if you don't want to listen to me complain, stop reading now.

I decided that 2013 was going to be the year that I work on my health. I want to get back into a healthy eating and exercise regiment that will help me to achieve my weight loss goals. I started using My Fitness Pal in order to track food and what little exercise I do get. Well I saw this morning that I have been using MFP for 80 days now! I looked at my weight loss counter and saw that I only lost 3 pounds! Wait, what? 3 pounds in 80 days? What the hell? That just set me off and I got extremely angry at myself because obviously I'm not doing it right or something. I calorie count like a champ and I count everything I eat. Whether they are desserts, snacks, meals or beverages. It's like a religion to keep myself on track and only eat my calorie allotment daily and there were days on end that I was under my calorie goal. Most professionals will tell you that diet plays a huge part in your weight loss. Well it doesn't seem to have a part in my weight loss at all. So all the calorie counting and water consumption have gotten me 3lbs down. Big whoop-de-doo!

Then there is the daily grind of packing and purging. I started off this moving project with good intentions and with tons of motivation. However the more I pack and purge the more irritated I get at how much crap I have kept over the years for no good reason. Saturday we spent about 8 hours just shredding documents that we didn't need anymore. 8 HOURS! That's like a full time job right there and I've recently found more paperwork in our bedroom that needs to be shredded. My lord, what was I trying to accomplish keeping all that crap. Paperwork from when I lived in CA and moved here to TN. I understand there are certain things you should keep, tax stuff etc. However all that paperwork that I had was unnecessary and downright ridiculous. I'm so over it! We have accumulated so much garbage in the 7 years that we've been together. That's just counting our stuff, don't get me talking about my son's room and all the garbage that he has in there because "It has meaning to me". Every broken toy or rock or piece of paper has meaning to him and he cries when I talk about throwing stuff away. He doesn't understand that for all the stuff we will be getting rid of, it will make room for an awesome new bedroom set and cool updated big boy stuff. I try to be calm and just work through it but at this point it's starting to get to me.

I've not been giving packing my full effort lately at all. I will admit that. I should already have a bulk of the house packed and I'm just not quite there yet. However I am feeling overwhelmed at the moment. It's like it will never end, the packing and purging. I have so much garbage that needs to be thrown out it's like an episode of hoarders in my garage right now. I just want to scream! How can my OCD have let all this accumulate like this! Arrgh! Let me tell you what, our new place is going to be different because I'm not going through this again!

Pulling It All Together

I will admit for as many times in my life that I have moved (over 100), I absolutely hate packing things up. I have a total go-getter attitude until it actually comes time to do it then I lose motivation after about the second day. It's so tedious. This time around I decided to get rid of a LOT of stuff that we either don't need, want or can use. I am tired of all the clutter and crap being everywhere. I think this is why yesterday I just had to take a day off from purging and packing to just chill out and rethink my approach. If I don't plan this organizational packing out right, I will run out of time to do so and that would be a shame. I now have 19 days left to pack it all up and I've made a dent on some of it. However it's time to get it into gear and take it to the next level which is one step closer to completed.

Yesterday I took two huge garbage bags full of clothes to Goodwill. They were clothes that I either never wore or were too small. I also got rid of my hubby's clothes that were too small as well. It felt good to donate them and to know that someone out there will enjoy these clothes hopefully as much as I did at one time. I also have a donation going to McKays used bookstore this weekend. All of my son's baby books and young reader books as well as some PC games and some PS2 games. Those I will actually get some store credit for, so it's not a total donation so not quite as rewarding.

I have managed with some help from the hubby to separate the garage into two sides. The right side is the side that is stuff to be thrown away and the left side is stuff we can take with us. There is so much that we need to get rid of that I'm going to be scheduling pick ups with the city for a few days in order to get it all taken care of.

I purchased bubble wrap and more plastic totes to pack stuff up in. The bubble wrap will come in handy for my nick knacks and dishes. I hate using newspaper because it turns my hands all black then I have to wash the dishes because they have black ink on them too. I have to use plastic totes because I am allergic to cardboard boxes. (I know what a stupid thing to be allergic to right?) I found this out when I worked in a fast food restaurant and had to break down the shipping boxes. I would get a rash all over my hands and arms from touching the cardboard and I would have allergy like symptoms with watery eyes and stuffy nose. It sucked, so now when I have to pack stuff up, totes is the way I go (and they are reusable!)

the totes I use are the clear plastic 

So that is an update on what I've been up to lately. Our new landlady has received our first month's rent and all of our deposits, so we are good there. The moving company has been scheduled and paid and they will be here bright and early on the 26th. I still have to contact the new school for my son to find out what I will need to provide for his enrollment. I will also have to start contacting doctors and making appointments for all of us as needed. Once we move we get to handle transferring our driver's licenses and getting our car registered for the new state and county. All these little things will add up to plenty to keep me busy once we are moved. This will give me a good chance to organize more and get on top of my A game.

For now it's back to packing up and handling the business at hand. The move is getting closer and my jitters are in full force now. I always get anxious before I undergo a change in my life and moving to a new state is definitely big change!

No I didn't start smoking again but you get the point

25 Days and Counting

Today is February first, which means that I have 25 days to get everything that still needs to be accomplished for the move taken care of. The next 3 weeks is going to be a whirlwind of happy chaos in our current household as I clean out closets, rooms and a garage. I must get rid of things we have no need for. I must make sure the proverbial ducks are in a row and that this move goes smoothly. I will of course have help from the husband and the boy child on this mission but the purging of junk will be all my responsibility. I shall bring organization to the chaos, it shall be done!

Yesterday was my last day of work. Once we move I probably won't be returning to work right away. I plan on going to school to get my real estate license for the state of GA so I can become an agent. There is a potential to make fabulous money in real estate and I'm looking forward to learning a new skill and going back into a classroom environment. I know that I'll have to start out at the bottom but hard work and effort should get me moving up the real estate ladder quickly, I can do this and I have set my mind into motion for it.

In the meantime I am going to take the next few months to take care of two things. First I am going to purge our lives of clutter and crap we don't need and we are going to move into our adorable new house. Second I am going to work on me. I want to start losing weight again, I want to expand my social circle, I want to get hobbies that I can enjoy, I want to decorate my home and my life with things that make me happy. I know that the move will not be the cure-all for every issue that I have in my life right now. It's not a miracle move. However, if I am happy and content in my environment then I can easily maintain day to day life and bring happiness to those I choose to surround myself with. I will have NO EXCUSE not to exercise because I can see Stone Mountain Park from my driveway. There are trails close to my home to bike or walk on, I won't even need a gym membership.

2013 is my year of making the changes I need to make to make sure I have a happy healthy future. 2012 was a year that I took some staggering losses (my sister being one of them). It was a year that made me cry more times than I wanted to admit. It made me come face to face with the reality that no one lives forever, no matter how good of a person they are, no matter if they have family who doesn't want them to go, no matter if they always lived a healthy happy life and overcame every obstacle that was put before them with dignity. When it's time, you simply go and there are no do overs or reset buttons. My sister was a person who I always wanted to be like, I respected and admired her so much. So it's time to ask myself "How would Deann handle this?" I know exactly how she would handle it, she would take care of business no matter how difficult or demanding. At the end of the day she would go out and sit by the pool and relax. I won't have a pool at the new house but I will have a little redwood deck that I can go sit on to reflect on my day and my choices. If I don't live the life I want to live now and I don't take care of myself now, then I'm going to have regrets that I will never be able to resolve when my end does eventually come and no one can go in peace if there mind is plagued with regrets.

I have spent too many years trying to be what everyone else needed that I have lost track of the Erin inside. Who is she? What does she like and dislike? What does she even look like? Honestly at times I can't answer those simple three questions. I put everyone else first because it's who I am. It's who I've always been, take care of others then take care of yourself. I'm a mother, a wife, a friend, a sister, an aunt and a daughter. I have so many people whose lives I touch and I want to make sure that I leave a beautiful impression while I'm there. So change is in the works for me and I'm hoping that the path to these changes brings me joy and gives me plenty of awesome stuff to blog about! =D

Kid Free Weekend

This past weekend was a kid free weekend for us. An awesome friend of ours agreed to keep my son for the weekend and of course I jumped at that offer with bells on. We don't get time away from the boy child often so when little moments like this come up we are very pleasantly surprised.

This left us in a conundrum. What to do with our free time? We don't go out often enough to know what people in our age group do. I thought about it all day on Thursday and Friday and we chatted back and forth via text trying to figure out something to do on Saturday that would be fun. We decided to go to the Hunter Museum. I've lived in Chattanooga for 7 years or so and have never been inside the museum. I was going to have a new adventure to add to my list and I was looking forward to it.

We dropped the boy child off on Friday night and decided to grab dinner. It was a late dinner for us since we got a late start getting up to our friend's house. First we tried Olive Garden, when we drove through the parking lot and couldn't find a parking space we decided to go elsewhere. We drove up the highway and I couldn't decided what I wanted to eat. I have to be really careful with my gluten sensitivity with where I go out to eat at. I get so darned tired of salads. My food options in restaurants is so limited that it frustrates me to no end sometimes just to go out and have a good time. We decided to go to Red Robin. I recently discovered that they have a Simply Fit menu that offers different types of healthy burgers with either fries or a fruit salad as the side dish. I always have the garden burger (veggie patty) on a gluten free bun. This time I opted to get the fries because I was feeling a little hungrier than usual. I always get water to drink at restaurants because it's free and it has no calories. I happily ate my burger and fries and then we decided to make a trip to Walmart and pick up some things that I hadn't had time to pick up during the week.

gluten free garden burger with fries

Saturday morning we woke up and decided to go to breakfast at Shoney's. I haven't been able to enjoy a breakfast buffet at many places because they are usually loaded with gluten options that just are not going onto my plate. Biscuits, breads, donuts, cinnamon rolls (is your mouth watering yet?) these are just a few of the morning time foods that I no longer get to enjoy (unless I make the gluten free versions of them at home). Shoney's however has a broader spectrum of foods for breakfast and I can easily avoid the gluten-tastic items. I had scrambled eggs, some fried potatoes and a plate of fruit. I had hot cocoa to drink because it was chilly out and I was craving cocoa. I ate my food and was proud of my choices (with the exception of getting to much ketchup on my fried potatoes, yuck!) We left there and headed downtown to the museum.

We spent two hours exploring the Hunter Museum. There was art in there so beautiful it made me want to cry. I loved walking around in the Old Mansion portion of the museum. I was imagining the balls and parties they threw there. The entertaining that the family did. The structure and design of the mansion is beautiful. As I walked up the stairway I ran my hand along the banister and wondered how many people before me had done the same thing. The master and mistress of the house, the children, guests and visitors. It brought a smile to my face. In the middle of what was once the dining room/kitchen area there was a statue. It was a statue of a kneeling woman done in white pristine marble. I was in awe of such a beautiful piece. The detail was so lifelike. How could somebody be the precise with marble? She had fingernails and her hair had waves in it. The gathers in her robes were amazing. Her feet were even pretty! Breathtaking is an understatement. The marble was so white and untouched, virginal marble. Not a flaw or speck of discoloration on it at all from what I could see. I loved it! We continued on through the museum and I saw so many other pieces that I would have loved to have taken home with me. Beautifully crafted with just the right focus on color or position. I was in a world that I felt so comfortable in. Surrounded by beautiful creations that someone put there heart and soul into, to share a piece of themselves with the world. If I could live in a museum I think I would, definitely!

There was another exhibit there by artist Paul Stankard. He is an absolutely amazing glass artist. His glass globes were something that I just couldn't wrap my mind around. All those tiny sculptures in those globes and paper weights were also made of glass. How? How could be make such tiny worlds in there and not break the glass? I couldn't get enough of them and I wanted to take all those beautiful globes home with me to display for all my friends and family to see. So I could wake up every morning and look at such beautiful designs. However that would take these treasures away from the public eye and that would be tragic. Everyone should have the chance to see such wonderment and beauty. There was one particular piece, a paper weight from his early years that I wanted. It was purple glass and had a single white flower inside of it. It was simple yet beautiful to me. (It was purple and that being my favorite color caught my attention right away). I didn't want to leave that exhibit but I knew that there was more to see.

similar to the piece that I wanted

We finished our tour of the museum and decided to go walking across that walking bridge that goes over the Tennessee River. It was chilly but it was sunny and such a nice day to go walking. We walked across and went to lunch at one of my favorite new lunch spots, Poblanos. This little restaurant is amazing and serves authentic Mexican cuisine. Most Mexican food is not something I can eat as they use flour tortillas in a lot of the recipes. However Polano's has a gordita that is made with corn masa (what they use to wrap tamales). It's gluten free and delicious. I have my gordita stuffed with pork. It also comes stuffed with refried beans and with a green salad on the side that you can also put into the pocket to enjoy. I have fallen in love with corn masa based products and am so excited to eat something other than a crunchy taco (ouch).

walking bridge spanning the river

On the walk across the bridge I stopped at a little coffee shop and grabbed some hot tea. It was called "Rain Forest Mate" and was an awesome blend of herbal bliss. I love hot teas, the more exotic the better and I love experiencing the different blends of herbs and fruits that can be used in various ways to please your palate. I almost wanted to skip across the bridge back but I would have spilled my tea and that would have made me a very sad panda.

We decided to go do some window shopping once we got back to the car. We drove to Pier One Imports and I had a blast looking at all the items that I would love to decorate our new house with. I was getting some fantastic ideas and I made mental note of all the designs I was to incorporate into our new home once we move and have funds available to do so. It's looking more and more like Ikea and Pier One are going to be my "go to" places for home decor. I have so many ideas, I can't wait to try them all!

We ended our day with frozen yogurt from Sweet Frog and came home to relax awhile. We ended up napping on the couch while watching a marathon of season 3 of NCIS. Overall it was a fantastic day and I was glad to have experienced such beautiful and wonderful things!

Sunday we drove up to pick up the boy child and play a little bit of D&D. I am definitely a nerd when it comes to the things I like to do in my spare time. We had a good time and soon it was time to come home and go to bed. I was exhausted after such a full weekend! Today is going to be spent catching up on laundry and doing some chores around the house. Nothing too strenuous but things need to be done. So it's back to reality and all the responsibilities that come with it, yay for being a grown up!

One Step Closer

Things have been so incredibly busy lately that I've once again fallen victim to not having enough time to blog. I've petitioned for more hours in a day but my petition is denied every time! So I'm taking a few moments this morning while my son gets ready for school to jot down what's been going on.

We got the lease for the new place last night. We read through it to make sure there were no surprises in the fine print. We did notice that the lease said that we cannot have pets. The landlord knows we have cats and that was even put on our application. I'm not sure if she meant to mark that section so I am going to call her today to assure that our fur babies will have a place to live.

This is one of our fur babies:  Raistlin

We spent hours last night pouring over "things to do in Atlanta" lists on the internet. My head almost exploded by the sheer amount of amazing things to do in the city and immediate areas. I simply cannot wait to move and get into an area that is so much fun and educational and NEW! (ok well new to me that is). The house is amazing and we are bike riding distance to Stone Mountain Park which is another huge draw for me. Having all those resources for outside exercise and enjoyment fills my heart with a joy that I haven't felt in years. Don't get me wrong I love Chattanooga too, there are many beautiful areas here as well but we've been there done that and there isn't much new left in this little city for us. It's still hard for me to believe that I've lived in TN now almost 10 years. (It will be 10 years in Oct of this year). I remember the move like it was yesterday. There are times when I miss California and my family more than I can express but overall I am very glad I moved to TN because I have grown, learned, lived and discovered more about myself and my life than I ever had before.

This weekend a friend of ours graciously agreed to watch my son for us so we could have a kid free weekend. We don't get those often so "date nights" rarely happen. Don't get me wrong I love going out as a family and doing family stuff but sometimes I'd like to just connect with my husband. We were trying to think of something to do for the weekend. I might have to work this weekend if our workload gets heavy so I didn't want to plan anything too extravagant. We decided to go to the Hunter Museum. In the 9 years that I've lived in Chattanooga I've never actually been inside this museum. I've been up to it, taken plenty of pictures of the outside of it, even walked into the gift shop once or twice but never actually toured the art displays inside. I love museums of all kinds. I love learning about history and seeing artwork that is so beautifully displayed. It warms my heart to see the creativity of other people. So we are going to do lunch downtown and go to the museum on Saturday. We'll probably spend a few hours downtown window shopping if weather permits. I'm looking forward to doing the one last thing I haven't done in Chattanooga before we move!

On the Move in 2013

There are many things that are happening in my life right now and so far they all seem to be good things. The biggest item on that list is we are planning on moving at the end of February. We are all super excited for this move and the train has already been put into motion. I simply can't wait for a change into a new state, a new city and a new lifestyle. Go team motivation!

We went house hunting in the area we are looking at moving to last Saturday. We looked at 4 houses overall that day. We were totally not impressed by three of them but one stuck out and I couldn't stop thinking about it. I was decorating it in my mind and planning things for all that space. After a couple of days of talking it over with the husband, we decided to move forward with the rental process. The woman who owns the home is so nice and she wants to find tenants who will take good care of the house and not diminish the property's value. I filled out our rental applications last night and we are going to get this ball rolling as quickly as we can!

It's a 4 bedroom 3 bath home that is over 2100 square feet. It's in Stone Mountain Georgia. In addition to the original living space of the home (which was 3 bedroom 2 bath) are a huge family room, a storage room off that family room and the garage was converted into a second master bedroom with en suite bathroom. It's an older home with lots charm. Hardwood floors throughout the original home and the additions have carpet. There is a bay window in what will be our master bedroom which I am going to utilize for a reading nook. The kitchen is dated but cute and has decorative tiles on the backsplash behind the stove and the area next the the sink. The laundry room will be right outside our master bedroom door, talk about making that task easier! Plus it's a single story, no more stairs! Yay!

(not actual home, lol!)

The backyard is fenced with a basic chain link fence all around and it's absolutely huge! I couldn't believe it until I walked to the back of the yard and looked toward the house and the house looked so far away . The kiddo will have tons of space to play and be a boy. There is a small redwood deck that is just big enough for some outdoor seating, I'm thinking a cute little umbrella table so I can sit and read outside while sipping tea, when the weather permits.

The only downfall is there is no garage for our car. This is not a big deal to me, but our car has been spoiled since we've lived in our current house. If it's a big deal with the car being in the elements, I can get a car cover for it and cover it up when it's parked. Or invest in a really huge umbrella! Lol!

The kiddo is totally excited because he will get the second master bedroom with his own en suite bathroom! He's never had that. He feels all grown up about it and it makes me giggle. Who knew that a bathroom could make his whole day? I'm sure he'll feel even more awesome once we get his new bedroom furniture and get it all set up for him. Talk about a room overhaul! He's getting the works this time around because he's going to be 11 this year and it's time to put away childish things and upgrade to big kid world!

The next few weeks are going to be filled with chores and plenty of packing and purging. I am looking forward to going through stuff and getting rid of everything we don't need. It's a huge family garbage purge and I can't wait. It's like Spring cleaning without the Spring!

I will try to post updates as I get them but if there aren't many posts in the next few weeks, I have a very solid reason. It's MOVING time people!

Yep, Still Sick...

I woke up this morning and yep, I'm still sick. Chest is rattling when I cough. Fever all day and night. I'm to the point where I'm hoping I die soon because I hate being this sick and death seems like a nice relief to the illness. My throat is always hurting now and the only relief is when I take my medication and sleep it off. I'm so freaking sick of sleeping. I am so bored because I can't do much and being upright for too long makes me sick to my stomach and lightheaded. This is honestly not what I wanted for Christmas.

On a kinda funny note, I've been way under my calorie count all week on My Fitness Pal. The poor app keeps reminding me every day that I am eating too few calories and that my body is going to go into starvation mode. I feel like I should justify my lack of food intake with something but there is no way to do that on the app. So I giggle inside when I see the disclaimer about my starving myself and eating too little every day. Honestly I'm surprised I can eat at all, it's usually only 1-2 small meals a day just enough to keep my headaches from flaring up too bad. Soup would be perfect but most gluten free soups are just nasty and I don't like them. Who would have thought that Campbell's chicken soup could be bad for me?

Keep fingers crossed form me that this antibiotic kicks this virus soon so I might be able to enjoy my holiday even the slightest bit....thanks!

Sick of Being Sick

Just wanted to give a heads up that I probably won't be on my blog much for the next few days. I went to the doctor yesterday and found out that I have a sinus infection and acute bronchitis. I have antibiotics and decongestant and was told to push fluids. I'm only up right now because I have to make sure that my son gets to school this morning. Once he's off at school, I'm going back to bed, taking my medicine and sleeping the rest of the day. I have a note from the doctor that says I am not to return to work until at least Friday but if I am still feeling bad to stay at home so I don't spread my germs. I am contagious, just be glad you are on that side of the monitor from me. I wouldn't wish this on anyone.

I hope everyone has a splendid rest of the week and I'm hoping that I feel well enough to do some blogging before Christmas is actually here. Warm thoughts of health with you all!